Who Would Choose?

Who would choose to be damned by God?

Who would choose to be hated by many?

Who would choose it?

Who would choose this?

Who would choose this life?


Klaus Mikaelson

 “A tortured soul in every sense,

With a past as aged as the earth itself,
His heart’s desire spares no expense. 
He’s bad, but good, in his defense.
Hated by many and feared by all,
He relishes in watching his enemies fall
The few he loves will meet his wrath.
Though deep within he means them well.
His good intentions are all lack,
Bathed in blood they turn to black.
A shadow that lashes on to those too close,
Seduces Death to greet his foes.
When those he loves, sleep in dirt,
He can hardly bear the hurt.
Realizing how the circles end,
He finds himself, with the pen…”


          Klaus Mikaelson is indeed a tortured soul. He’s one of the original vampires, and has lived on this earth for over a thousand years. Being an immortal, his siblings are the only constant in his life, and they don’t particularly agree with Klaus’s methods. Selfish as he may be, he means well, and deep within the cold veins of his heart lies a vulnerable boy who longs for acceptance. Over powered by his Id, Klaus becomes a victim to his sins, and is trapped in an endless cycle of violence and heartbreak. He eventually realizes that anyone he devotes himself to is marked by the Fates, and doomed to die.

It is what it is…

For the past year or so, I’ve been in the long process of coming out. My sexuality was always something I chose to ignore. Since forever, I’ve NEVER gotten a boner from a female, and I doubt I ever will. That’s just the way it’s always been. That said, I’ve never been one to rule out the possiblilty. I don’t feel comfortable placing myself into the “gay” box. I’m far too uniquely shaped to fit in any sort of box. I’m me. For as long as I can remember, I’ve liked guys. Punishing myself for something I can’t help seems cruel. I love myself too much for that. Being tortured by the overbearing thought that God hates me is very counterproductive. I want to be happy in my future, and if happiness means meeting a wonderful awesome dude… Weeeelllllllllllllll Imma take it. And I will continue to believe that MY God loves me unconditionally and no matter what.  


Classy Balding

            Going bald is something I’ve feared from the first time I started caring about my appearance. You see, I was born with an incredibly massive forehead to begin with, so the thought of it one day growing even bigger was horrifying. I have what you call an airhead, or at least that’s what I see in the mirror each morning.

            I’ve recently started watching Vikings on History, and immediately found myself coming down with quite the man crush on the beautiful character named Floki. At first glance, Floki seems like a dirty pervy boat maker with extreme believes about the gods and how to please them, and that’s essentially what he is. However, it fits him so well that imagining him as anything else seems wrong.  


 Anyway, I just wanted to point out that Floki is the only man thus far to make a balding head look sexy as hell. Combined with his personality and his darker circled eyes, his little mess of hair is the perfect addition to a character you just HAVE to love.

P.S. He also reminds me of Rafiki from The Lion King haha 


Sources: http://geeknation.com/history-channel-vikings/ 



A World in Pain

          The plane crash that happened just a few days ago in the French Alps took me by surprise. I have an aunt who is a flight attendant for Lufthansa, and I immediately worried about her safety. I don’t really know too much about how airlines operate, and I thought since GermanWings was Lufthansa’s child, there may have been a slim chance that my Tante was on that flight. Luckily, she only flies international Lufthansa flights from Frankfurt, and she is okay. Some of my family also visits Spain regularly for holiday, but thankfully no one was traveling at that time.

           What happened was a tradagy. No one could have predicted that the co-pilot was mentally ill. without knowing the whole story, I hesitate to cast the blame on Andreas Lubitz. For the sake of his family I hope we don’t disgrace his memory. The Abi students who lost their lives causes me to beg the question, “Why?”, and fills me with a bitter sadness. After a fun-filled exchange trip to Barcelona, these young people will never be able to tell their families about their glorious adventures in a new land. My heart goes out to the friends and families of these students. I tried to imagine what it would feel like to lose my best friend, and the emptiness and pain I felt from just imagining such an ordeal, was too much. I cannot truly imagine what their loved ones are feeling right now. The only thing I know how to do is to send a prayer their way (or good vibes, or whatever you want to call it). This is a time for the human race to find common ground and to realize that people are just people. Everyone hurts sometimes. Let’s unite as a species.

             This doesn’t just apply to Germany. I wrote this because it’s my home, but it applies to every country. People are suffering in so many places. No matter what your personal feelings are towards Russia, it is made up of people who are just like us. There are “bad” men and women in every country, but I believe there are many more good people than bad. Everyone believes he or she is in the “right”. The Houthis in Yemen truly believe that they are the Robin Hood of a corrupted government. The emotional and physical abuse that Yemen citizens are being put through is wrong, and I hope that they will find peace soon. Because what is happening now is uncalled for and cannot go on.

           In short, before I write too much, and also so that I can get back to studying for my exam, I just want to point out that a lot of the world is in pain right now. If you are reading this from the comfort of your bed or couch etc. be thankful. Take a moment to pray for our brothers. Take a moment to share your thoughts and to shine light on these issues in the world. Get people to recognize that we should band together as a species to love and protect our neighbors. No matter what religion, race, sexuality, or class they are in, we are all just humans.


My name is Matthias. I am young, and I dream of a bright new world. I look to the future hopeful; longing for peace; willing it to come about using whatever means I have at hand. Majoring in business, I hope to one day leave the small closed minded town I occupy, with the help of some sort of degree. Telling myself that I’ll be happy WHEN I reach a certain point in my life, has yet to lead to much success. So I choose to find happiness in the moment. I choose to take each victory and loss as an important milestone in my beautiful adventure called life. No matter how things turn out, I will choose to enjoy my journey, because I only get one…